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did you ever feel like you've misplaced something? car keyes, wallet, yourself? that's how i feel right this second. why? i'm all out of control. it's like i'm driving the car but there's no one behind the wheel. it's just running on it's own. not paying attention to where i wanna go. and i don't like it.

being on the edge and not knowing if you're gonna jump now or an hour later because it seems like there's no way out. believe me i'm not making this up. it's true that i've spent the last weekend watching the 1st season of the x-files and i'm feeling all kind of strange sensations in my head wondering if any of those stories might actually be true. imagine for a moment. that the truth isn't out there but here right infront of us. yes, it's a scary thought. and i like it. in this crazyness of my misplacement-dimensia it's the only sane place i can come to that will not let me down. ever. and i'm thankful for that.

so back to my misplacement scenario. i just feel i don't belong anymore. it used to be so much fun but now i just feel i'm dragging myself to the same place every day just because i have nowhere else to go. for the moment. and something needs to change soon or i'll end up living a life other people expect me to and forget about me. god, i wish i could talk to someone that feels the same way. perhaps we could help eachother. i trully hope so.