trust no 1

that's the phrase that's been going thru my mind lately. why? well, first of all because there's just no real "freedom" left in the world. that's my opinion anyway. everyone, well almost everyone, is just trying to get the most out of you. but the catch is they leave you totally drained out!! i mean totally! and they don't even know it. or they pretend not to know it. i know they're not really that stupid to not notice, are they? and what's worse, they expect you to be grateful to just be able to work in the same environment as them. i don't like this picture at all. i guess someone might say; "if you don't like your situation, change it!" yes, i get it. still it's easier said than done. you agree? drained out. that's what i am right now. i feel like there's nothing really going on for me. a lot of back-stabbers in the process as well. unfortunately. more and more actually.

i got nowhere to look for a helping hand. every aspect of my life is going from bad to worse. on top of which, guys from work are constantly bugging me and expect me to be answering the phone every time they feel like calling me or every time they need something to be done. what am i a piece of furniture they can just move around however they please?? ok, perhaps it's not that terrible to you, but it's damn frustrating for me. i've prectically stopped sleeping and eating and still the pressing is getting worse. when i finally muster a little private time i'm so tired i can just sit on the sofa like a vegetable and watch tv. is this a life? i don't think so. something's gotta give. i just hope they don't push me so far that it'll take for me to be pushing up daisies before they realise they should have lightened up and given me some space. how about that ...

chrisis? yes, yes, financial chrisis. it's a very, very, good excuse to drain everybody that's working in the world till they drop dead isn't it? of course. as long as the people above stay happy, right?

gosh, even in my blog i'm talking about work. see how far they pushed me? actually i'm waiting for my car to be ready. front light is broken and needs to be fixed. it's nice to have someone to talk to in the meantime :-) really. even you. i don't even know who you are. ain't that funny? yes, i find it very funny how one can feel better talking to someone they don't even see. so thank you.

well, it looks like the 1st is all i can give you right now.