californication

it's quite amazing how something can grab your attention out of the blue. i have always been an "idol" driven person. which i don't regret at all. not a bit. it's made me realize that life is full of secret happenings that struck you when you least expect it. surprises if you will. and i like surprises. for instance...

just when i thought there can't be anything better than grabbing a couple of diet cokes, a handful of potato chips, some gravy, snuggle into my bed and watch another movie or another x-files episode...californication comes along and wipes me out into another dimension. now, is that beautiful or what???

so now, every monday, i've got another thing to look forward to. and you?

piran

this weekend i decided to go on a road trip thru the slovenian coast. i did go. but i didn't get very far. actually i stopped in the first city by the seaside. i found my favourite rock. i sat down and watched the sun go down. that was enough for me. it was magic. the picture i took is almost as magical...but not quite...

X-Files 3?

i'm watching the 6th season right now. it's kinda late too. 2:31 am by my clock. i can't sleep actually... so, i just finished with the 16th episode and decided to go online for a bit. and a thought came to my mind: will the 3rd x files movie come out? i googled it and found a site for signing a petition to support the making of the third movie. of course i signed it. why? well, because i got hooked by this show not too long ago. apperently just in time to see the release of the 2nd movie which seemed a lot like an extended episode.

i must say that i liked the 1st one better which of course i saw after running to the nearest virgin store to get it. actually i think i saw it in 98' when it originally came out but it seemed too scary for me then. even the show didn't get to me back then. but now i really got stuck on it after finding out that one of the tv channels was running the 5th season. what i'm trying to say is that those two got something special going on. they really do. and not just in the show.

of course like any other newborn x-files nut i checked out everything i could get my hands on -- meaning also youtube -- and the interviews got magic and chemistry going on too! It's really a wonder how the show makers were able to keep it going for so long with nothing really happening between them when just a touch of their hands was amazing to see (and to rewind :-)). It would really be a shame for it to end with the XF2 movie so i really hope that mr. duchovny will come up and be the driving force for the 3rd one too!! well -- back to the 6th season then. what was it? ah, 17th episode...

86

did you ever feel like you've misplaced something? car keyes, wallet, yourself? that's how i feel right this second. why? i'm all out of control. it's like i'm driving the car but there's no one behind the wheel. it's just running on it's own. not paying attention to where i wanna go. and i don't like it.

being on the edge and not knowing if you're gonna jump now or an hour later because it seems like there's no way out. believe me i'm not making this up. it's true that i've spent the last weekend watching the 1st season of the x-files and i'm feeling all kind of strange sensations in my head wondering if any of those stories might actually be true. imagine for a moment. that the truth isn't out there but here right infront of us. yes, it's a scary thought. and i like it. in this crazyness of my misplacement-dimensia it's the only sane place i can come to that will not let me down. ever. and i'm thankful for that.

so back to my misplacement scenario. i just feel i don't belong anymore. it used to be so much fun but now i just feel i'm dragging myself to the same place every day just because i have nowhere else to go. for the moment. and something needs to change soon or i'll end up living a life other people expect me to and forget about me. god, i wish i could talk to someone that feels the same way. perhaps we could help eachother. i trully hope so.

sicko

it's funny how we take health for granted until it strikes us down. i've been in my bed for over a week now taking pills and all kinds of medicine to make me feel better. i've got some kind of weird virus or something. so apart from checking my emails now and then i've basically been surfing thru all the 99 chanels on my cable big screen lcd tv (i just needed to add that last part there...sorry...).

so as all the channels now seem the same to me (except eurosport of course where i daily watch the live broadcasts from us open) i much rather watch a great movie. this also gives me the opportunity to run-sack my DVD collection and memorise all the movies i haven't gotten the chance to memorise yet. thank god i joined itivi so they send me some fresh movies every couple of days. i don't even need to get out of bed to get them.

but i must admit this memorising has its charms. you always know what's gonna happen next :-). which brings me back to the title of this piece -- sicko -- which i probably really am since i've watched my favourite movies so many times i stopped counting. still i believe there are souls like me out there. and i say -- keep on going!

mamma mia!

i just realized something... it's one thing to see a trailer, like what you see, go to see the movie and just like it. but it's an entirely different thing to see a trailer, like what you see and then be totally blown away by the movie itself. it's gorgeous when you just keep on smiling all thru the movie and not even realize it until the end of the movie when you just sit there and say to yourself: "gosh, now is this a wonderful year for movies or what??" and it really is. and it's not just because a new movie came out and i'm sort of trying to get people to see it because god knows the movie does not need my PR to make it! i just wanted to send this cosmic opinion out into the big wide world. i have no doubt that this movie will pick somebody else up like it picked me up so i came out of the theatre whistling mamma mia, dancing queen and of course the winner takes it all. that's what music does to me. that's what music does to probably most of us. not to mention the talents that are doing it. outstanding and unforgettable.

day 29: leaving NY

i must say it's been educational. mostly i'll remember the "i feel like a real newyorker" feeling going thru my mind every time i sat on the bus or took a ride on the subway. and what's my "the best of list"? best movie: dark knight. best evening: seeing "mamma mia" with my friend james. best club: plan b. best meal: dim sum at ruby foo's. best buy: ray-ban glasses at sunglass hut. best drink: strawberry daiquiri at chelsea dinner. best event: sheryl crow concert at rockefeller plaza. happiest moment: having my final project screening at the theatre of the new york film academy.

day 26: Sheryl Crow VIDEO

and there you go...a little bit of practice just to get you started...read about it in my previous post. excuse the resolution and bear with me.

day 26: Sheryl Crow

6:30am. i'm standing at the rockefeller plaza in the vip box waiting for sheryl crow to come up on the stage. i bet you're wondering how i got here? well, it just so happens that since i'm a student at the NYFA doing broadcast journalism in affiliation with NBC, they got me and my classmates in!! is that beautiful or what?? i know the hour is a little early but what the hell. sheryl just gave an interview for NBC television saying that she had to get up at 2:30am or something to get ready so i'll stop my whining now. there. i stopped. happy now? ok.

7:30 now. the practice songs. i just love that sheryl is wearing her ray-ban glasses while performnig. gotta take a few pictures. i got a pair too. i think they are just the most beautiful pair of glasses one can afford to own. and that's a cold straight fact. actually i got two pair of those just in case i sit on one or something. you never know. it's better to have a backup. where was i? oh, yes. 8:30. now the concert! the crowd is pretty big now, the sun has come out completely, so the light is simply beautiful. now she sings again. that's amazing. i've never been to her concert before so this is a really nice treat for all of us. thanks NBC!

and for all of you that haven't seen this conceret that was actually broadcasted live on NBC's today show a picture of sheryl crow while performing "soak up the sun".

day 21: the interview

why so nervous? i'm supposed to do my first real interview with a real subject and don't really know where to start. the thing is that i think it's a rather nerve-wracking job this interview thing. i mean, first you need to find a credible subject that is not really your classmate or your roommate...boy that would be easy. no, you can't do that. so back to basics! who to interview?
and the second thing is that i really do not like to harass people with questions like: what's your name, are you married, where do you live, what's your background, so do you have a job, how much money do you make, are you feeling at all depressed and alone...well maybe not that last one but anyway i guess you get my point. so that's why i think i'll meet my teachers somewhere in the middle, i'll get someone from the movie business and talk about the business itself rather than personal stuff and doing a biopic. i guess that should do it. because i'm passionate about movies and i've always been.
i really don't see myself doing a story about politics and asking people about how they voted because i could end up beaten up in the gutter somewhere and the next day my classmates would be wondering if i finally met someone famous and fled to LA or something. which wouldn't be too bad at all.

day 17: VOSOT

i must say i feel pretty good being in the field with my team working on my VOSOT field report. now imagine...being in manhattan, the big apple, and doing a field report on the new release of the hottest film this summer. i'll let you decide which movie it is... the funny thing that happened was that at the same time there were other crews of TV networks doing the same report i was doing.

they were looking at me and my crew a little suspiciously, as though they were wondering what we were doing in that same exact place. but we just went on with our work, interviewed a couple of people, i did my b-roll stuff (getting the coverage of the event itself) so i could edit it allright later. i guess it seems really pro doesn't it? yes, i'm really enjoying this course at NYFA. i think i might do another one... (VOSOT = voice over sound on tape :-))

day 14: NBC

here we are at rockefeller plaza at NBC studios. there are more television sets, monitors and lights here that in all of my country. not kidding at all. of course instead of listening to the lectures that we were having this morning at one of the NBC news conference rooms which were very interesting, most of us (me and my classmates) were actually wondering how to get a job here. this would definitely be a great place to work it. and a great company to work for. well, our hopes and dreames kind of vanished into the thin air when one of the NBC producers said that they aren't hiring right now.

it's a shame. still my friends who have come to NYFA to do the 8 week course in digital journalism still have a tiny jar of hope since they will be approached by the human resources department of NBC News after they graduate. the 4 week class however will need to start looking for other options of getting a little surge in the monthly cash flow. me included. but hey, it ain't over till it's over. right?

day 12: Dark Knight

in the past few days everything has been revolving around the release of the dark knight. everywhere i looked there were posters, ticket sellers, trailers, people talking about seeing the movie, or going to buy tickets or previous batman movies. mostly though it's been about heath ledger and his brilliant performance. it messes with your mind.

i've read somewhere that it's like james dean. he left this world when his time was only beginning. and his work has only scratched the surface of his talent. i was amazed with his performance in "brokeback mountain". it takes a great actor to lead such a difficult story and get away with it. like tom hanks in "cast away" i guess. i thought of it just now. when i walked to the theatre just a couple of hours ago, there was this creepy feeling running up and down my spine. he was only 28. heath ledger. i'm living just a few blocks away from the appartment where it happened and i just cannot shake this feeling. even now. months later. i just can't do it.

before i saw dark knight i had two favourite villains: johnny depp as sweeney todd, and before that jim carrey as the riddler. the joker, portrayed by heath ledger is truly a deep, dark, deadly and most scary villain ever. i mean, people clapped during the movie whenever he was doing a scene. he never lost character not even for one second. not to blow your steem with spoilers let me just say that it's a great performance by a great talent that unfortunately left us before his time.

day 7: Iron Man

if you haven't seen it, see it! it's positively outstanding. and do you want to know why i decided to see this movie? i didn't know anything about the action hero iron man. and frankly i didn't really care about it. moreover plain and simple i've already seen everything else that's been playing in movie theatres and just took a chance. the cast also did it. i thought: "gwyneth paltrow, robert downey jr. and jeff bridges in an action movie? that's a first."

though i knew that robert downey jr. was a brilliant actor i didn't quite expect the movie to blow me away. and it really did. you just have to love the comic inserts brilliantly interpreted by iron man/tony stark. intelligently too if i may be so bold. still haven't bought a ticket? well what are you waiting for?? time's running out.

day 3: NYFA

not counting jet lag, i'm doing fine. the big apple is still as big as i remember. though being in the middle manhattan (west 23rd street and 9th avenue) it cuts you away from the skyscrapers of this "island". still i'm glad to see that every morning my path to school and back will be decorated by a magnificant view of the empire state building rising above broadway avenue. beautiful.

the new compound of NYFA (the new york film academy) at soho (prince st. and broadway) is beginning to be like my second home. my first class already seems like i've been here for a few weeks already. broadcast journalism...i wonder how it will turn out.

the worries that i won't be accepted and how i'm gonna fit in are totally redundant. the second i walk into the classroom helen, the international student from england, greets me and we start chatting. she tells me everything that happened the day i was missing (i reckon i don't need to go into the details again...). i slowly get the picture of what the classes will be like.

other students arrive. the teacher arrives and at 9:30am the class begins. very intensivly we get into the hands-on audio sphere with dexter. lunch. then hands-on camera with a great cinematographer/director till. i mean, it's my first day and already we are operating equipment worth thousands of dollars (panasonic hvx 200)! amazing! this is what i came here for. let the filming begin!

day 1: stranded at the terminal

finally on my way to NY. i'm sure you also had escapades where every possible thing went wrong. mine however pushed me to the limit. so, i have all my suitcases packed. got my plain ticket, 1.500$ in cash, F1 student visa, ready to collect the frequent flying points when... well the first part of my trip was just fine. i flew from ljubljana to frankfurt. got off the plane and then it started. i realized i had only 40 minutes to switch to another plane that would take me to JFK.

easier said than done. by the time i finally got to the transfer unit, they told me i was too late to check in and that i need to run to the gate in case they still let me on the plain. i ran like crazy, got on the train that took me to another part of the airport only to arrive to the point where they did not let me beyond that point: "sorry. the boarding is finished." that was it right there. i've had my first nervous brakedown of the trip.

the lufthansa staff then tried to get me on the next plain to NY, which was of course fully booked. nervous brakedown number 2. i didn't have any other choice but to go to the ticket counter and buy another ticket for the flight to NY the next day (which of course ment that i would miss an entire day of my classes at the NYFA). to my surprise the airline did not offer me any compensation and i ended up paying for the hotel and everything else plus another 100€ because they needed to change my ticket. in terms of timing this has been going on all day by the end of which i was totally exhausted and just wanted to sleep.

i arrived to my room and tried to sleep so i turned on the tv set which has always helped me relax. my luck being as it was, i chose the news channel where i heard that the lufthansa airline is supposed to have a general strike the next day. nervous brakedown number 3. am i ever gonny get out of this place??? i rushed back to the airport and got checked in for the next day and asked around if anyone knew anything about the strike. of course they all denied that the strike was gonna happen. which made me even more nervous.

i got back to my room and had a couple of "painkillers" from the minibar. finally i went to sleep. the next morning i woke up, turned on the tv and heard: "lufthansa airline is on a general strike today...". nervous brakedown number 4. i rushed out of the room, payed the bill, rushed to the ariport to the first lufthanca service centre and told them my story for the 15th time. they assured me that the plain is gonna take off because the strike applied only for the internal flights and that my baggage was still at the airport. well, i thought, finally some good news.

i grabbed a little bite to eat, a bottle of water and slowly made my way to the gate since i had a couple of hours to spare. i looked around a bit, checked out the shops, didn't buy anything, but anyway. i got to the gate with less than an hour remaining before taking off. i sat down and i was just about to relax when speaker announced: "dear passengers since this flight is overbooked we are kindly asking for volunteers that would take the evening flight to NY. not all of you will be able to get on this flight..." nervous brakedown number 5. i couldn't believe it. "is this nightmare going to end at all ??!

this was beginning to seem like a very sick joke. i mean, who are we? bags of potato that anyone can just push around or paying customers??? i decided that i've had just about enough of this s.... i got up, got to the gate entrance door and decided that i'm not gonna let anyone else stop me from finally getting on this flight. the whole the terminal movie with tom hanks was playing in my head, how he was stuck at a terminal and couldn't go anywhere.

and then it finally happened. they opened the gate door and almost like wild animals everyone that was waiting rushed thru the door to the plain. i finally made it. not something i would wanna do all over again. hence the picture of me in my window seat.